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7 years later.... [Friday
April 12th, 2013 at 2:36am]
Oh man I could say its been awhile but that'd be an understatement. I've been through a lot these past 7 years. My mom passed away before I got to know her may 2011, still heartbroken over it but I keep it movin, well probably becuz I have to. She died and I couldn't even go to the funeral, and my dad tells me "you should be glad the bitch is dead". Thanks pops I'm sure glad the one thing I wanted will never happen. I keep a lot of what I feel to myself, one because I don't have anybody to talk to about it and two because every time I try it never works out. I gave up on almost everyone I used to know, mainly becuz they don't see how tired I am of people walkin in and out of my life and the fact that I went out of my way to bring everyone together becuz after meech died everything just fell apart, six months of plannin and everyone dissed me, and I mean everyone. So I stopped trying. A lot of people think I am HAPPY because I put on a good front, but truth is I got a lot of weight on my shoulders, three jobs & school full time, and a million things running through my head that sum days I just cry in my bathroom because its just too much. Nobody knows about that but me, not even dan. I would kill myself if I could, but after antonio did I just won't let myself go out tht way. So I pray, I pray that some day I'll be able to run away, and keep running till I'm truly HAPPY. Its funny because on the outside I look like nothings wrong but on the inside I am the most broken person you'll ever meet. I'm afraid that no one will ever truly know the real me becuz I gave up on letting people in becuz I always end up gettin hurt. Maybe someday that will change, but for now I'll keep it this way. As bob seger would put it "So here I am on the road again... turn the page."
Muh bOii’S ChaiiN hanG dOwn tO hiiS diCk

tell me why.... [Tuesday
November 22nd, 2005 at 5:12am]
[ mood | pissed off ]

last nite i went to practice.talked to roy fer a bit.practiced.got a lil pissed off at garrett n roy.krista drove me to the library where me n rachel deff did not work on our project lol.then the g's picked us up.went to the store got some new makeup n *HOT CHEETOES* tonite me rachel n emily are goin to oxford afta school sumtime.then tommorow i gotta wake up reall early cause im goin to my sisters in ohio round 8 in the am.sooo this will prolly be the last update befo i go.but much love to everyone and call my ass AFTER 9 cause its free and ill prolly be bored off my ass drunk so yeah lol peace.

Muh bOii’S ChaiiN hanG dOwn tO hiiS diCk

Let me tell you somethin. . . [Saturday
July 16th, 2005 at 3:10pm]
[ mood | dirty ]

I woke up to the phone ringin wit some good news.I tried to fall back asleep but that didn't work out.Then some fucked up shit happens and like poor Joesph had to be rushed to the Emergancy Room & everywun was yellin and i was like ummm this is too much drama so i left.Tonight i'm going to RaChel'S daD's hahah yess we gonna have some fun ;).I got's to go pack some muh shit & get ready so p.O.

*Ugh* i jest don't know what to do about him.... :/

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May 2nd, 2005 at 10:29am]
[ mood | Thinking ]

Beaten.Collapse )

[6] I knO iiM dA ShiiT Muh bOii’S ChaiiN hanG dOwn tO hiiS diCk

*Friends Only* [Sunday
May 1st, 2005 at 12:38am]
[ mood | tired//cant sleep ]

[15] I knO iiM dA ShiiT Muh bOii’S ChaiiN hanG dOwn tO hiiS diCk

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